Chaos with Cait

I am becoming a mosaic of every cracked moment that tried to shatter me. I was born into chaos where silence meant tension, and love had...

I do not write of joy often because joy has not sat with me lately. Not the way sorrow has. Not the way silence knows my name. I have...

Life didn’t ask. It just arrived loud, unruly, and without warning. It came with fists full of breakage and a mouthful of lessons I never...

I push people away, before they decide if I’m worth holding onto. Before they get too close, before I give them the map to all my soft...

If I could just swallow my pride, everything would be alright. The silence wouldn’t stretch so long, the nights wouldn’t hum with...

I know I am deserving of soft mornings and open doors of joy that stays, not just brushes past. I know I carry a heart made of gold, even...

Please be patient with me. I am picking up the pieces of a story I didn’t ask to break. Some days, I hold them like glass sharp with...

There are so many things that I will never get back. There’s a handful of people I will never connect the same with. So many...

My happiness is tied to my freedom, whatever that is anyways.

I harbor resentment towards my mother. She has stolen more things from me than she will ever be able to take accountability for. I hear...

I woke this morning and chose me. I look forward to doing that more often.

I could have, I should have, I would have yet I did not.

Flowers. Sandals. Sunshine & birds.

Those eyes. “Those eyes? just dull and blue,” she said like she’d skimmed the surface and moved on. “Yeah, right,” he scoffed, shaking...

Napping on a beach. That sounds like a great forecast for me.

You are a bridge between emotion and expression, spirit and action, you are a bridge between silence and voice.

I was dying a few times and I still did not scream out for help.

Stop playing it safe. Let things get risky for a little while.

You are not here to be perfect. You are here to be real. Your purpose is to feel, to learn, to experience, to heal. Then to help others...

Mentally there has been a lot for my mind to process. There has been an unimaginable amount of ungodly things for me to digest....