Lost In The Sauce

Lost in the sauce,

I have been drowning in my own thoughts.

I feel as though I am so much more

and still, I have certainly been afraid to explore.

I am lost most days

consumed by the anxieties of the

"what if's?"

Never knowing the outcomes of my mistakes.

Not knowing what tomorrow can bring,

has a choke hold on me.

I feel like my life is at a stand still,

like everything is falling apart.

It is like, I want to bet on myself and reach for the stars

and then somehow I never even start.

I don't know where or how to start

because I am overly critical of myself

and then I drown myself in my millions of thoughts.

I am not sure if anyone can relate to me.

I like to blame these difficulties on ADHD & OCD,

but then again this blog alone is a step and it is a start.

If you are anything like me.

please try and talk to yourself more kindly.

I am sure you are brilliant and have a pure heart.

In the end of all ends,

I suppose the message should have began and ended as simply as.

"NEVER BE AFRAID TO START"

If you have made it this far, Thank you entirely for reading the words

bleeding from my heart.