Stay A While

They say to stop rationalizing my feelings.

They tell me to just sit with the feelings for a while, yet I cannot.

I cannot sit with them.

I do not think that they understand.

These feelings are too big & too loud and they have been silenced for too long.

I am scared of everything that is desperate to come out.

I'd rather not be a mess, I choose to never be seen undone.

I do not want to feel in magnitude, that is why I have been on the run.

I am running from Rage and I am hiding from Anger, while I sit with Sadness longing for the return of Happiness.

I'm tired. I'm tired. I'm tired.

I do not want to feel. I just want to heal